I''m finally coming to terms with Doom (the self-centered fear of losing what I have) and Gloom (the self-centered fear of not getting what I want). I have this knack for subtly distorting present circumstances with recollections of disappointment, frustration, and resentment. The chatter of Doom and Gloom make me wonder about what would happen next if the other shoe fell.
You see, I drag my past into the present whenever I treat feelings as "facts". Some person, place, situation, or outcome is not what I expect, and I overreact as I am taken out of my comfort zone of what is known and familiar.
A common term for this malaise is "doubt". My past reminds me that I'm not so sure that I know what's best for me (or others). Doubt leads to fear when I am faced with making choices based on selfish or self-seeking motives, accompanied by guilt and remorse knowing that I'm accountable for the outcome of those choices.
So, just for today, I will make decisions and act on them rather than slip into the whirlpool of doubt that turns feelings into "false evidence appearing real".
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